Testimony 25/12/05: Linger Around

Disappointed. Disappointed at church. Disappointed at work. Disappointed by Christians. My heart sank. I started wondering why. Without realising, I went on a strike with God. A strike that did more damage to myself than to anyone else. I didn’t go to church in December. I stopped joining cell. And my personal relationship with God went dry.

But in His gentleness, Jesus came. He gave me the story of the shepherds. “And an angel of the Lord stood before them” (Luke 2:8 NCV). Their first reaction? Fear. The good thing was the shepherd stayed to hear the next verse. “Today your Saviour was born in the town of David. He is Christ the Lord” (Luke 2:29 NCV). When I am scared, linger around Jesus. When I don’t understand what’s happening, stay. Just like John after the crucifixion of Jesus. All disciples were scattered. The Jews were still on the road looking for their heads. But thank God John stayed in the city… and ultimately saw the Saviour came back to life.

I might be on a wilderness now. So many things change this year. On a search for a church. Looking for cell group. Moving country. New job. New friends. New way of life. But when I am scared, and when I am confused, Jesus said, “Linger around.”

And oh… I did go to church this Christmas. And what a wonderful thing to be in the house of God.