Testimony 04/01/06: Different
Ever wonder why there is such thing as loneliness? Ever wonder if there is such thing called friends forever? Ever wonder why no body understands you?
I do. I feel like an alien when everyone tries to take over each other, I give way. When everyone grumps, I smile. I give thanks for a favour when everybody else walks away. I feel so different. And I feel so tired. I feel so alone. I want everybody to be nice to everybody. I want every Christian to be passionate and on fire for Him.
Sometimes I think I should also take over others. May be I should stop smiling. Or may be I should walk away, too. Reading the Bible everyday might be too much anyway. Besides, everyone is doing that. I feel I make no difference doing it alone.
Yes, it is true I don’t have many friends over here yet. But I feel a voice whisper to my heart. You might disagree with me but I felt it saying that the very thing that makes me feel lonely is because of that… I’m different. I’m not like anyone else. My patience on the road might save someone’s life. My smile might make someone’s day. My thanks might touch someone’s heart. And my passion for Christ might save someone’s soul. If I down grade myself to some impatient, grumpy, thankless person… than I would be like everybody else! And yes I would make no difference!
Funny how I enjoy my kind of “loneliness” now. And I’m glad that I am different not just for the sake of being different, but because I follow what God has put in my heart.
I do. I feel like an alien when everyone tries to take over each other, I give way. When everyone grumps, I smile. I give thanks for a favour when everybody else walks away. I feel so different. And I feel so tired. I feel so alone. I want everybody to be nice to everybody. I want every Christian to be passionate and on fire for Him.
Sometimes I think I should also take over others. May be I should stop smiling. Or may be I should walk away, too. Reading the Bible everyday might be too much anyway. Besides, everyone is doing that. I feel I make no difference doing it alone.
Yes, it is true I don’t have many friends over here yet. But I feel a voice whisper to my heart. You might disagree with me but I felt it saying that the very thing that makes me feel lonely is because of that… I’m different. I’m not like anyone else. My patience on the road might save someone’s life. My smile might make someone’s day. My thanks might touch someone’s heart. And my passion for Christ might save someone’s soul. If I down grade myself to some impatient, grumpy, thankless person… than I would be like everybody else! And yes I would make no difference!
Funny how I enjoy my kind of “loneliness” now. And I’m glad that I am different not just for the sake of being different, but because I follow what God has put in my heart.
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